bonetiddies

[ You have friends, she wants to say, but that would derail the conversation into a familiar argument, so she doesn't. ]

If you can make friends here, then I believe in you to make them at home too! Trust me.
I guess I've just been thinking about it... Omi told me before he died how he felt about Gojou, and I thought it was really brave of him to love someone he knew he'd have to leave whenever we get out of here.
But I've never really thought about if loving someone is right or wrong, or smart or stupid. I don't have a lot of experience though.

[Ugh! She's not friends with Ortus!]

Is it bravery if you don't have a choice? Doesn't love just happen to you, whether you want it to or not? I think the only question is whether or not we choose to acknowledge it.

I don't have much experience either. I couldn't help you. It might be that even if you part, you'll be glad to have had the experience. But it may also make it that much harder to go back to your old way of life.

I guess that's what they call bittersweet.
And when I think about it, I can sort of understand. I'm not going to regret caring about you or the others we've gotten to know.

I only wish I had your certainty.

You think you'll regret it?

I'm being excessively maudlin. I've been too in my thoughts of late.

Did something happen?
And if you do regret it, it's only because you care that much. The more you care, the more it hurts right? That doesn't have to be a bad thing.

[Long pause before she responds.]

Nothing happened.

It's only that I've begun to realize how unhappy I was at the place I was before. I had become numb to it. And I fear I am no longer numb. But I do not have any choice but to return. There's nowhere else I can go.

[ . . . ]

I can find a way to bring you back with me.
I bet Vira would be happy to see you too!

[Another long pause.]

That's very kind of you. I don't think it's viable for a number of reasons, but it's a nice thought.

Now. Your pointed line of questioning leads me to believe you're thinking of feelings for someone in particular.

[Whoever could it beeeeeee?]